Miss you mum

Just been reading your text messages on my phone. I wish you was here so much. I can't believe you're gone, I don't think I ever will. It's too big a thing to get my head round. I know one day we will be reunited and that gives me some comfort but it doesn't take away the pain of losing you. I hope you liked all your flowers laid for you on Mother's day, they were beautiful just like you. I am so honoured to have you as my mum, you really are the best. I still look to you for guidance and I know you are there, watching, wishing the best for all your daughters. I love you xxx

Mother's day

Well, happy Mother's day to you mum. Words simply cannot express how big a void is left inside me without you here. I feel so bitter and angry at times with how some evil cruel disease had to take you and when others talk about what they're doing with their mums this Mother's day when I can't makes me want to lash out. It's not fair. I still to this day can't believe you're gone. I have this small knot of frustration, despair and helplessness in the pit of my stomach and it grows bigger and bigger til it threatens to overwhelm me. I don't know how I'm getting through each day but somehow I'm managing but I don't know how. How does one carry on when the person who carried them for nine months, gave birth to them and then raised them is no longer here? I don't know. I love you forever and always mum XxxxxxxxX