First of all, life is nothing but one messed up journey that is set to try you until you can't deal with any more crap but somehow life still throws continuous crap at you. Feeling like I can't deal with anything anymore at all. All I can do is just let what's going to happen, happen and simply let it do its worst. If I didn't have any children, I'd quite happily give up and be done with everything but I can't and that frustrates me at times. God took the wrong person when he took my mum. There are murderers, rapists, paedophiles, yet, God took my mum? What the hell is with that? Words cannot make any sense of it at all. It's fked up. Don't even have a dad I can turn to. All he cares about is himself and those who benefit him in some way, shape or form. Couldn't even buy my daughter, his grandchild, a card. Done with him. Feel sad about it but as far as I'm concerned, I don't have a father. I want, need my mum so much. She was an amazing mum, person, she didn't deserve to have her life cut short. Fking joke. I feel so messed up and I don't know how to deal with it. It's all bullshit.
