...since I last wrote but not a day goes by where I don't think of my beautiful mum. Have had some really hard days, unbearable. To say I miss my mum is a huge understatement. I can't believe she has gone, it's just too big a thing for me to take in. I feel like it hasn't really happened, that any time now I'm going to see my mum. How do you get your head round losing your mum? You can't. I can't. I don't think I ever will. Living in denial is infinitely easier than letting the truth slip through, which, from time to time, almost does. My mind just goes fuzzy when I try to think hard about who I have lost, the strongest woman I know who I was blessed with as my mum. I love you mum. I hope you like your flowers I laid for you last week xxx
