Miss you so so much mum. The pain is still as raw now as when you first passed away. I wish we'd have done more, you were a fighter and I wish I'd have spoken up more in that hospital room instead of just going with everyone else. I felt I was wrong to voice what I really wanted to say. All these regrets I have, they cut deep. Like, not taking your overnight bag to you at the hospital. That haunts me. You wanted it. Life is so horrible without you. Just existing. I'm trying to keep busy just to keep sane when really, all I want is to be with you. Don't know how I go on without you. You're my mum.
